finally

alright everyone. after extreme procrastination (fear really), long heart to hearts with myself and God, juan fussing at me to get off my ass and just do it, and prayer.... i've decided to do my own talk radio show.

as many of you may already know, i am a certified life coach  (www.coachangela.com) with a busy practice helping women get their acts together around money/financial literacy, love, career transitions, goal identification and accomplishment, and well, just getting through life's tough spots.  i absolutely LOVE what i do and feel i've been called by God to do this work, which is why i feel it's a blessing every day. but i've been running from this radio show idea for the last 2 years because i wanted everything to be perfect (anal capricorn), and waiting for the ideal time.....
the website and blogs updated, the marketing done and ready to go, the format and 6-9 months worth of topics in the hopper and waiting, along with a few guests lined up.  

NOT. there is no such thing as perfect nor ideal, and i know that. i don't have even half of all that stuff ready to go. there is no ideal time to step out on faith, except for the moment you actually do it.

now that i've set a date and put it out into the universe, it's now real and i must do this. honor God really, because i know it's Him who's pulling me, pushing me really, to do this. you all know how He can be. it's like a rock in my shoe. dang it.

i'm scared.

so what will this show be all about you ask? well, it will be just an extension of my coaching practice and situations and solutions i come across while working with my father in our financial and small business consulting firm. along with lots of  "me" and my story, for good measure. oh, and a little bit of nonsense i'm sure. you all know how i LOVE to talk, so we'll see..

there's that fear again. danm. deep breath. i know in my bones that i'm supposed to be doing this. but i'm scared.

no one knows me. who am i to be talking about anything, right? why would anyone want to listen to me? what do i have to say that's meaningful?

damn,. fear. deep breath.

i can do this. i will do this. ok. so there.

stay tuned. the show will launch the week of february 18th.

coach angela's blog

still chewing

heya,

lately i've had so much to blog about... events, thoughts, just wanting to vent, just wanting to share. things occur to me while i'm driving, on line at the store, or as i'm nodding off to sleep, but when it's time to sit down and actually write about whatever it was, i can't. or i subsequently only half the story.

usually, it's because i've chickened out honestly. i'll start to feel that it's too much to shaerw with a semi anonymous public, or that it may be about my own feelings about a situation involving others, and that i could be breaking confidence, telling their business, or hurting feelings. and then getting overwhelmed by all that i want to say, share. i get overwhelmed because it's a lot. a lot of hashing out emotion, figuring it out, thinking about it. sometimes i don't want to do that. then i realized the other day, that I DON'T! 

LIBERATION.

i can still write about all what's going on with me without having to have the answers or have figured it all out by the end of the post. even if it involves others.... i'm not 'talking' about them or 'telling their business' since it's MY experience, my perspective, my truth. SO WHAT. (in my best Madea voice) 

so stay tuned my friends!

Phenomenal Women

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!

hey y'all!
i hope you all are well. yes, it's been a while, and i'm so sorry that it's been a trend. i was having security issues with blogger, but hoping that they'll be resolved soon. with that said, let's dive in shall we?

in continuing on with what was supposed to be last years theme of being truly honest with myself, and the realization that i'd been hiding from my blog because of it, i realized that i don't talk much about my parents or other immediate family here. well the truth is that it wasn't a 'realization' at all really. i was hiding that part of my life on purpose for various reasons, but nothing deep and dark... at least not to me. (key words here "to me") that was the realization.

i don't have much of a relationship with my mom, and i don't talk much about her here because i know it would bother her deeply. she'd be offended, annoyed, and pissed. i'm sure of that because most of what i'd say wouldn't be flattering, unfortunately. she'd feel that i was revealing all things 'deep and dark', but, again, not to me. it would just be my truth. i'll get in to the in's and out's of all that latter. let's get to the heart of this post, which does has something to do with my mom really.

because of mommy (and dear daddy of course!) my birthday is on christmas, and my immediate family - her, my brother and his beautiful family (wifey and 4 boys!) - gathered to have dinner and celebrate each other and the kids. well, mommy dearest loves drama, so it was a guest as well. and in the aftermath of the drama, i discovered with such certainty something amazing...

that i am a truly blessed woman to have some absolutely amazing women in my life. strong, outrageously funny, beyond courageous, talented, determined, caring, incredibly intelligent, oh so beautiful... i could go on really. i am in awe of them every day. they fill me with joy, happiness, and laughter. they share themselves with me in ways that i am honored. they allow me to see life through their eyes, which gives me such amazing perspective. they comfort me, protect me, mother me, and remind me that i do matter in such a way that it's as if they birthed me themselves. they are some of my loudest and biggest cheerleaders. they are my cousins and friends, but in reality.. they are my mothers and sisters and i'm so thankful for them. i may not talk with them often, or even regularly, but they are loved, and i know they love me. more important, they continue to remind me that being a woman, and a mother, is an amazing thing.

i love you.