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Sunday, June 28, 2015
The Disappation of Guilt
And again, it’s been awhile. And again, I find myself
feeling guilty for being so absent, especially when there’s so many of you
who’ve loved, cheered, and prayed me through so many wonderful, tough,
hilarious, and scary times. And even more so since there’s been so many amazing
and challenging developments the last year that I know you all would have loved
to have been clued in on.
I think I’ve figured out why I disappear... I sit down to
start writing, then start thinking about all that I didn’t write about, feeling
like I need to catch you up, then I start feeling guilty, and overwhelmed. The
other, which I suspect may play more of a role then I’m wanting to admit, is
figuring out just how much I want to expose. I myself have no problem with
that… I’m an open book, so to speak. However, I find myself being more
concerned about and sensitive to those close to me, and whether they’d want
their business in the street, even though it’d be from my point of view, or
wondering if I’m hurting their feelings. There. That’s pretty much it in a
But I don’t have time for guilt, or to be tip toeing around
peoples feelings; as much as I do wrestle with it. Heck, other than Ladybug
(‘LB’) and the Hub (my husband), most of “those close to me” don’t even know I have
a blog. But, you never know…
Anyway, I am back… yet again. And even though I have a lot
of exciting things that I’m working on, and a lot going on (Ladybug is heading to high school!! ongoing
health challenges, new business opportunities), I promise… I am here to stay.
So much beauty and adventure on the horizon and I'm excited...