Phenomenal Women

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO YOU ALL!!

hey y'all!
i hope you all are well. yes, it's been a while, and i'm so sorry that it's been a trend. i was having security issues with blogger, but hoping that they'll be resolved soon. with that said, let's dive in shall we?

in continuing on with what was supposed to be last years theme of being truly honest with myself, and the realization that i'd been hiding from my blog because of it, i realized that i don't talk much about my parents or other immediate family here. well the truth is that it wasn't a 'realization' at all really. i was hiding that part of my life on purpose for various reasons, but nothing deep and dark... at least not to me. (key words here "to me") that was the realization.

i don't have much of a relationship with my mom, and i don't talk much about her here because i know it would bother her deeply. she'd be offended, annoyed, and pissed. i'm sure of that because most of what i'd say wouldn't be flattering, unfortunately. she'd feel that i was revealing all things 'deep and dark', but, again, not to me. it would just be my truth. i'll get in to the in's and out's of all that latter. let's get to the heart of this post, which does has something to do with my mom really.

because of mommy (and dear daddy of course!) my birthday is on christmas, and my immediate family - her, my brother and his beautiful family (wifey and 4 boys!) - gathered to have dinner and celebrate each other and the kids. well, mommy dearest loves drama, so it was a guest as well. and in the aftermath of the drama, i discovered with such certainty something amazing...

that i am a truly blessed woman to have some absolutely amazing women in my life. strong, outrageously funny, beyond courageous, talented, determined, caring, incredibly intelligent, oh so beautiful... i could go on really. i am in awe of them every day. they fill me with joy, happiness, and laughter. they share themselves with me in ways that i am honored. they allow me to see life through their eyes, which gives me such amazing perspective. they comfort me, protect me, mother me, and remind me that i do matter in such a way that it's as if they birthed me themselves. they are some of my loudest and biggest cheerleaders. they are my cousins and friends, but in reality.. they are my mothers and sisters and i'm so thankful for them. i may not talk with them often, or even regularly, but they are loved, and i know they love me. more important, they continue to remind me that being a woman, and a mother, is an amazing thing.

i love you.