Wednesday, July 2, 2008

ode to ladybug, part two

i can't even begin to explain to you how much i love my child. the word love just ins't sufficient realy. my first 'ode to ladybug' talked about my feelings for her, and eventhen, still not enough.

so, there's this song by lauryn hill called "To Zion", where she's talking about her son, zion, and goes through the feelings of her experience. in a way, her experience is mine too. and whenever i here this song, i think of my ladybug. actually, it's not that hear the song often, it's that i thnk of it often, because of how intensly i love my girl.

well, here are the word to the song, but i've made some changes, as thouse of you who know the song will be able to tell....


Unsure of what the balance, held, I touched my belly overwhelmed by the meaning of it all. Then an angel came one day, told me to kneel down and pray, for unto me a womanchild would be born. Though it's crazy circumstances, I knew her life deserved a chance, but everybody told me to be smart..."Look at your career " they said,"Angela, please use your head." But instead I chose to use my heart.

Now the joy... of my world...is in Lauren! Now the joy... of my world...is in Lauren!

How beautiful if nothing more than to wait at Lauren's door. I've never been in love like this before. Now let me pray to keep you from the perils that will surely come. See life for you my Princess has just begun. And I thank you for choosing me to come through unto life to be. You are a beautiful reflection of His grace. You see, I know that a gift so great is only one that God could create, and I'm reminded of that every time I see your face....

That the joy of my world is in Lauren! Now the joy my world is Lauren.

My beautiful, beautiful LAUREN!!


..... yes, my lauren camille.

3 comments:

glo429 said...

oh Angela, I know of what you speak. I remember how much I loved being pregnant. Bonding for 10 months with this child before I had to share her with the rest of the world. Then finally getting to meet the one person in the whole world I would love unconditionally, and give my life for. It's an awesome thing, the power of the love of a mother for her child.

Princess Tinybutt said...

hey glo!! yes, yes. did you read the first 'ode to ladybug' too? yes, glo, its amazing really.. this woman who was clear about not wanting to have any kids. who's 'career' was in a true full swing. GOD is amazing. and i love HIM for this.

:)

Lovebabz said...

GIRL POWER!

You know I say it all the time I love strong girls...

You are an amazing MOM! YOu gave birth to an amazing KID!